I went home for a few days during the holidays. I’m back now 2 days before school (uni) stars again but I sort of thought I shold add an update. The guy I wasn seeing/doing I saw before I left and i said goodbye and he pulled me into a deep and meaningful hug. I wondered if he knew that when he huged me goodbye he was hugging me goodbye forever. I’m willing to put up with a lot, but we had reached the limit. It was goodbye to this part of our relationship or play by some new rules. Going home gave me the strenght to enforce the new rules, play my way or the highway, and for once I am ok with that.